Baby K is 3 months old

He smiles. He coos. He is much more active during the day. He still cries when he has gas. He is much bigger now such that everyone here have sore arms and achy back. He has to be held to fall asleep. He wakes up at night to nurse a 2-3 times but goes right back to sleep.

As for me...I am slowly moving back to life, but not quite. I am back to work, but not quite. In the office part time, and all I want to do afterward is to go home and stay home with the baby. I am still not to bringing baby out and about. Not even to visit friends. Why? I have lots of excuses. My mom can stay home with the baby for now. Why bother with the hassle of bringing baby out? Baby is not prime time ready with spit up and crying. Am I being overprotective? Then the thought of breastfeeding anywhere other than home simply freaks me out. I just can't imagine having to support him without my pillow. What if baby pukes after feeding? What about milk leakage that inevitably happens? Ack! Driving myself insane with these thoughts...